First off, I'd like to apologize for not getting my mini-reflection up here yesterday. I didn't have internet access over the weekend. But, I've read all the reflections on the main page, and I'm impressed with my classmates, per usual. Many of the questions are so ambiguous and open-ended that I don't even know how I would begin to respond to them as a future teacher who can literally count his hours spent teaching on two hands. But, these questions are important, and I'm guessing that we are going to struggle with them for the duration of our careers in the field. Ray reiterated Yagelski's question, "What, ultimately, are we educating our students for?" And I know that the 50,000 (or however many) members of the NCTE would all possibly have different answers to that question. Many of those answers would be getting at ELA teachers' ideals and fantastical utopias in which a love of literature is imbued in every student, every year. And this passion and intention, I think, is largely why I initially decided to become an ELA teacher. But, now that I've received some more education, I've realized that this intention/goal does not really jive with anything I stand for. In his post, Jerry asserts that "Some books are better than others, and more worth knowing. Literacy should be an aspect of a liberal education--not defined by a list of great books or personal taste in and of themselves, but through the interaction of both canons and choice." This statement is a contradiction if I've ever seen one. The traditionally snobbish assertion that reading "literature" is "better" than reading other types of books dictates that if you have your students best interest in mind and believe this statement, how could you give them any choice? They are going to choose inferior texts; they must be told what to read; they have bad taste; they don't know what is best for them; they don't yet know that they all want to be English majors. This is all a bunch of bullshit, and frankly, I am starting to have problems with the idea of teaching the canonical texts at all, unless my students decide they would like to read them to suit their own purposes.
I don't want to be part of the institutionalization of books, whether they be "good" or "bad." Sato wisely states that as ELA teachers, "We have the power to make changes in ourselves and in our classrooms by viewing the students beyond the blink." I don't understand how any teacher could look at his or her students for longer than a blink and think that imposing canons of taste in books, both reading and writing, is a tailored fit for every student. Over the weekend I spent some time with a kid that I grew up with. He is a High School dropout who struggled to even get a GED, and now he works as an auto mechanic. To this day, he has poor reading skills, but he is a great conversationalist and has great personality. He also was intrigued as to why I wanted to become an English teacher. One year ago, I probably would've told him, "Well, I've read so many fucking books that I think it would be a waste if I didn't teach kids about them." But, now I realize that what I've read means nothing to my future students or my friends who are auto mechanics. I asked my friend whether or not he would've been interested if his ELA teacher would've let him read an auto manual or an auto magazine with car and part reviews and used those texts to teach him about reading, writing, genre, etc., and found stories that he would be interested in. He said in so many words that he would've actually attended that class. I've learned well enough from my girlfriend that I can't impose my liking for avant-garde musical compositions on her; she still likes mostly pop music. And I think as most of us younger people who have just recently become or are still becoming politically minded and globally conscious in the past few years are learning with the sad state our world is in, apathy is difficult to eradicate, cynicism is sometimes hard to fight off, and change is slow and hard-won stuff. But, I don't think that the beginnings of change lie in imposing my taste in literature on my future students. Even President Bush professes to have "read some Shakespeares" on one of his exorbitant amount of vacations last year, and look at what a thinker that guy is. The burgeoning youth has multifarious interests that are viable, important, and worth exploring with them in order to work towards developing thoughtful individuals, and they already have many things that they could teach me as teacher, cause the one thing I've always been sure of is that I don't know a damn thing, and I don't plan on keeping that a secret.

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